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i am drunk...

thank you that is al.

Y'know, if my theory about dreams is correct and they are a window into a parallel world. Where we see different versions of ourselves in different worlds doing different things, then at least one version of myself, out there, somewhere, is lucky enough to be with the girl of my dreams.

Funnily enough, even in my dreams she is still the girl of my dreams. Ironic no? :p

I dreamt about her twice last night and in both dreams I was holding her tight at the end and full of happiness that she wanted to be with me as much as I wanted to be with her.

If only t'were true in real life...

This is why, generally, I really dislike dreaming. *grins*

You'd have to be really bored to click this.

It's a horrible feeling to know you've caused a person's death.

Even indirectly.

Even just in a dream.

I just woke up from this dream...

I was with some friends on a bridge about three metres above the water or so and it was warm and I was bored so I did a back somersault off the bridge into the water, did it no problems because I've always done it with no problems in real life. Anyways a few minutes later a group of girls have come onto the bridge and were sitting around talking and one of them, who'd seen me, stood up and did the same thing I did.

But for some reason the tide had gone out the river was empty.

I looked over the edge and she was lying on the rocks with...

gods... why did I ever dream that?

~_~

I'm in mig's room.

She's asleep.

Singapore rocks.

I'll be sad when I have to go home because I can't take the wonderful people I've met here, home with me.

~_~

Worth an Entry?

*shrugs*

I'd say so...

For the first time in my life ever I might actually be leaving australia...

In march there's a good chance I'll be going to either finland or singapore... or maybe both since the finlandish flight stops over in singapore :p

Although you have anywhere else interesting to suggest please do ;p

At the moment however it looks more like singapore than finland that I'll be going to as finland is lots more expensive to get too... even though I'd far rather go there.

Soooooooooo wooo for flying foxes!

Why do things hurt when they shouldn't?
Why do friends vanish when they shouldn't?
Why do we do the things we shouldn't?
Why do actions have reprecussions that they shouldn't?
Why do we get depressed when we shouldn't?
Why can't it all be the way it was?


Why can't I stop thinking about you for fuck's sake? It's not like i'm in love with you or anything, love is an entirely different feeling... but why does your absence in my life cause me naught but sadness? Why do I think about you at the oddest times and wonder what I did wrong? What did I do to make you not care about me in the first place?

I think about saying something then realise it is all pointless... I've said it all before and we were friends for a day or two until you drifted again and I was left, staring at a blank screening thinking of you off happy and having fun with all your new friends who you abandoned me for...

And the funny thing is? You'll never even see this... never even know... never even care... So all this vain depressing posturing is really... nothing more than an arrogant hypocritical waste of space...

Ahhhh what fun my life is on occasion.... <<

(quote from irc)

[Khuffie] you know there's something inherently wrong when the first thing you do after you wake up is check your computer for any messages, yet you know for a fact that you can count the number of people who care using two hands
[Khuffie] wait
[Khuffie] make that one hand

(/quote)

Funny... I know exactly what he means...

How do you forget someone?

I've never had this trouble before, normally if I don't want to think about someone or something I just put it out of my mind but I've been unable to forget about this one person... I'll not think about them for ages then something will we remind me and I'll get all depressed and blah and whatnot... *shrugs* it's more than annoying it's painful. I have no wish to be friends with them again, they left me when they didn't need me and I don't want anything to do with the person again, but I can't keep it out of my mind... so anyone who has any idea of how to help with this, it'd be appreciated... *grins*

well my hard drive died last night, Mig, that was why I vanished so suddenly, and it'll be a couple of days afore I can get a new one so I won't be on much for the next few days, if at all.

Battle Royale is a disturbing movie for a number of reasons.

My room is bare.

Mmmmm bare buttocks... here mig... *grins evilly*

I now have the net properly back but I found myself at a loss as to what to do with it I don't have any messagesboards to post at, no irc channels to go into, few friends, mostly I just come here out of habit these days and it disturbs me because y'know aside from a couple of people (and one who I can't seem to stop thinking about even though y'know it's been so long since we've talked or anything that we're not even technically friends anymore) I didn't miss it.

And I don't know what's changed about me to make me think of the net and go "ho hum what the hell will I do while I'm on it"

Thankfully I have crystal chronicles, a gameboy advance, a link cable and two roommates who also have gameboy advances and link cables. If you can contrive for it to happen, multiplayer Final Fantasy Cystal Chronicles is an absolutely awesome gaming experience. You can combine spells/skills with other players to produce more powerful effects, you have a family who write to you while you are out on adventure, you meet all these weird and funky people while travelling from town to town. It's absolutely awesomely fun.

The only problem is that you can't have your gameboy advance SP plugged into the power while it's connected to the gamecube which means every few hours you have to stop playing to re-charge the gameboy which is highly annoying. *grins*

yeah I'm back... well only half back at the moment till we get a hub and I get my own compy hooked up to the net...

And yeah I'm livin in brisbane now so I'll go stalk sasha all I can.

On the good side, frozen udl (vodka, lemon and lime) cans don't explode when they freeze.

On the bad side, I have five frozen cans which are proving hard to drink.

On the good side, with a little ingeniuty and a knife I now have a udl snow cone. Yay me!

On the bad side, I won't have the net for a month after the 23rd... not that that'll make much difference to anyone but just so y'know I haven't upped and died or anything... Speaking of... why is it 'upped' and died... I mean if you die you go down... *shrugs* anyyyywayyysss...

Cheerio

*wipes away a tear from his moist eyes*

I have to say... my opinion of Joe Pesci has changed... the late movie on tonight was called 'With Honors' about a Harvard student (brendan fraser) who ends up meeting a bum and then befriends him....

The last time a movie made me feel this way was Patch Adams...

Where's someone to talk to when I'm feeling all mopey?

I hate this time of night, no-one's ever on.... Suffice to say if get the chance to watch 'With Honors' I recommend you do, you might find it boring, you might find it trite, but I found it really touching and it's not often that a movie manages to touch me the way that this one did.

Edit: nothing like a good episode of scrubs to perk you up and make you feel happy again.

Cheers

List of things that'll be in the house when I move there. This is between three people.

3 PC's.
2 PS2's.
2 Gamecubes.
3 tv's
1 Gameboy Advance Sp's (soon to be three)
A metric tonne of dvd's and games.
1 Xbox.

and some various miscellaneous stuff that's not worth mentioning. :p

Profound thought for the day: Raw egg is like honey. Only... not.

SPIDERMAN Mark Voegel became a gruesome feast for the creepy-crawlies he loved.

They devoured his body after he got a lethal bite from his favourite pet Bettina - a deadly Black Widow.

More than 200 spiders, several snakes, a gecko called Helmut and several thousand termites gorged on their former master for days.

Police who were called in after neighbours complained about the smell said it was "like a scene from a horror movie".

They found the remains of 30-year-old loner Voegel draped across a sofa, covered in giant cobwebs.

"Spiders were running all over him," said a spokesman. "They were coming out of his nose and mouth. Larger pieces of flesh had been torn off by the lizards and were taken back to the webs of tarantulas and other bird-eating spiders.

"There were open cages and terrariums everywhere - all bathed in a weird green light. It was horrible."

Police described Voegel's tiny apartment in the German city of Dortmund as a cross between a botanical garden and the butterfly breeding room in the serial killer movie The Silence of the Lambs.

Local expert Gabi Bayer said Voegel should never have been allowed to keep many of his pets.

She added: "Some of his spiders are so aggressive they're the equivalent of the pit-bull in the animal world."

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Just a little fun news for you all.

Oh and yay I'll be moving soon.

From Nibsy

My journal says I'm 50% masculine.

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Can someone teach me how to sleep?

I mean I can sleep... I just wake up feeling crap and achy and y'know, it sets the tone for the entire day... and if I dream.... damn... I feel like... well... even worse. On the plus side I have hikari's easter present all done and got.... I just gotta get Meira's... and true to form... she's proving difficult.

*grins*

Hikari's was easy... I was just looking around out of it like always and I blinked and saw it and was like... Hikari'll love that... I mean she probably won't, but people usually do when I have this feeling about something. And of course if I actually put thought into the gift... mouuuu... I've searched my town high and low but have yet to come up with Meira's.... which is... frustratingly annoying... Hell I was even asking random customers at work if they knew where I could get one... all i got was weird looks... from them and the guy I was working with. :p

so bored....

sitting here reading bash quotes I'm that damn bored...

someone come online so I've got someone to talk to?

It's odd how things can be so bittersweet.

There's this person right and I don't think about her at all anymore... almost really... but whenever I'm reminded of her I am sad... Anyways.... I got to talk to her tonight and was all happy happy... but she had to go... and reality came crashing down on in like a brickwall on humpty dumpty.

*shrugs*

Still... Just thinking about her makes me happy.... if sometimes sad....

Mouuu

Shoot me and get it over with? :p